Something I've wanted for so long
just some space--
to get my shit together
to keep forgetting everything that happened
to find myself,
without the impact
of you.
I just wanted to walk away from you,
with no complications,
I wanted it to be easy
Easy...
with you,
I always knew,
was impossible
"I hate you," I say
and all you return with
is how much you love me
all my imperfections,
all my insecurities,
you take and hold in your heart
And it makes my head spin,
to know that someone thinks of me
that way
Especially you,
when at one point in my life,
I heard you say,
"I don't love you anymore,
and I never will again"
Those words,
like a knife to my soul,
still remain,
and as hard as I try to make
them
go
away
I can't
And I know it's awful,
but the awful stuff is there,
it lingers,
and I don't see it going away
anytime
soon
So I'm sorry,
I can't give to you what you want to give me,
but I will never forget,
how you made me feel,
when my heart was ripped to shreds
But I understand,
that if we can't be more than
friends...
then we can't be anything at all.
This is what I wanted all along,
to be nothing
at
all
Why does it hurt then?
Why does it feel like a part
of me, is walking away
again?
This is exactly what I didn't
want in the
first place
I want to be able
to feel
nothing
when I look
at
your
face
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